Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes...

My moto for sometime now has been... choose your battles wisely. Today the narrowminded words of other's is making this a bit difficult for me and I wonder if standing up for someone I don't even know is a battle worth battling... so I sit here biting my lip, reminding myself that there are worse things in the world than narrowminded people who haven't experienced life and never will.

A dear friend of mine has helped me in many ways, ways she can't even begin to imagine. But I am so thankful for her being in my life. She opened my eyes to a lot of things I was doing wrong. Make a difference in places that matter, change what can be changed... and let the rest of the world take care of itself.

Anger that I once had, lack of self love seems to have been altered in someway the past months. Perhaps being 35 is part of it. But I'm happy and working and designing a better future for myself and my family.

I can't save everyone, this is something I've known for a very long time, but parts of me still tried. How I've adapted myself to the new woman I am. How I've taken that love for others and given it to myself is amazing... I wonder if losing the load of all that negative energy has helped me with my weight loss? Since September I've lost nearly 60 pounds now and I'm still going strong. I'm returning to life, I'm only getting younger it seems. I'm becoming myself again and I'm hardly afraid to show it.

Friday will determine a lot of things for my future. I keep thinking positively, that Friday... finally Friday will be the day that will begin the rest of my life. Friday will be the answer to everything I've ever dreamt of. Friday will will bring me... well, the place where my loved one and I can happily grow old together.